Luctor et Emergo

Going up or down? Is the title of another beautiful image of my friend Vlad @ Vladstudio. His wallpapers and images are free to use. Amazing artist.

The image seemed fitting for a new blog period. I know I have been absence for half a year, too much sadness and grief was going on in my life and while blogging is a good outlet you can't keep rehashing the same issues day after day, your readers will get fed up with it quickly. So I stuck to journaling for that time being and chose to keep my thoughts and rants quiet.

However lately I had to urge to blog again, couldn't find time. Isn't that an oxymoron? A chronic ill person, at home all day with nothing other to do than staying alive has no time to blog. I know! I was amazed and irritated with myself too. What no time? How is this possible? What on earth do you do on a day that you can't make time to blog, a 'friend' asked me.

So I started thinking about that and well, let me enlighten you, here is an account of my daily day activities.

I have a reversed sleep cycle(thank you adrenals) that I'm trying to correct, so I usually fall asleep at 5 or 6 AM. Now daylight is peeking through the curtains at 6:00 AM it's even more difficult to fall asleep. Trying to correct the sleep cycle mans I do go to bed at a reasonable time at 1:00 AM even though my cortisol is than sky high I try to ignore that and try to sleep in the hope that one day it will stick. I will wake around noon and will try to get out of bed. This means I had only 4 or 5 hours of non-restful sleep. Plagued by numbing pain in my joints I wake up frequently and need trips to the bathroom too because I suddenly seem to have the bladder the size of a peanut.

After I dragged myself out of bed and sit on my chair next to my desk that also serves as my medication station, I start by taking part of my meds(Hydrocortisone, supplements, heart homeopathics) and inject Heparin that I had prepared the night before, after that I inject my Growth Hormone and recover from this activity and shuffle to the bathroom. Sit down to wash face and other necessary parts of body that need cleaning, gurgle with special mouth water to kill bacteria that giving me a sore throat, need to be careful not to choke on mouth water and ingest it. Does not go down well. Brush teeth, pull on yoga pants and shirt and am more than exhausted by all this. Wonder if I should go back to bed, assessing my spoons for the the day, I decide to make the trip to the kitchen and be careful not to trip over the dogs who are excited to be left out of their crates and need to go out. Manage to get them to the yard where they turn around and stand before the door looking at me and why I don't come outside in the rain and play as well. Silly dogs. Now on to my frist aid to get my head cleared a bit, espresso!
In the meanwhile it is 1:30 AM.

I have a hospital bed in our family room so I can lie down there and still be part of the activities or watch tv. My small laptop(MacBookAir) is there and the dogs keep me company.
Check email, let puppy out to pee, go back to email, get up again to let pup out to pee. Good grief her bladder seems even smaller than mine! I get enough exercise today!
Get up to take rest of medication and another espresso. Because I can not stand at the counter to make breakfast I have a protein shake with special supplements for breakfast/lunch.(Thorne Research - MediClear Plus Formula).
Give dogs treat balls filled with their breakfast/lunch so they are busy for a while. Go back to laptop on the bed and do some shopping like new supplements, pet food, medication, food. I have been so lucky to have found a cook that cooks home style meals for the price of take out and I order each week healthy menus so W. only has to put them in the oven when he comes home.
Am exhausted, it's 3:30 by now.

Am irritated that it is 3:30 PM, need to be in bed by 4:00 PM to rest in order to be able to get up around 8:00 PM and have dinner and some conversation with husband. Had planned to do some blogging, work on my photos, take at least one photograph a day, start the design of a new prayerbead for a dear friend, write an email to my daughter and work on pup Miss Molly's blog. Who the hell am I kidding? Only myself.
Decide to go at least to the yard and sit on the bench and throw the chuck-it ball for the pups, no need for them to suffer from this illness as well, I suffer enough for half the world population as it is. Take phone with me to get the daily pic. Dogs are excited and run back and forth with the ball. Good, means they will be ready for afternoon nap. They know the drill though and are totally tuned in with my schedule. The days they do not go to Doggy Day Care to play with friends they will sleep in their crates till noon after W. has let them out before work. I'm truly blessed with 2 such lovely canines. They never ever wake me up or whine to be let out and play in the morning. After 20 minutes of some good exercise(for them) we go back inside and off to take a nap.

Gheez I'm exhausted as I lay my hurting body back down in my bed, grateful for the soft and comfy mattress toppers that relief some of the pain in my hips. As I drift off in my meditation and visualization I remember to say thanks for this being a good day. I was able to be up for 4 hours, partly lying down in the family room but still, awake for 4 hours. There are days that I don't even manage 1 hour.

Awake with a startle, confused, is it day or night? Do I have to get up or get back to sleep? Look at phone, it's 8:00 PM time for dinner and to get up. Pups are already out of their crates because W. is home. I didn't notice because I sleep with earplugs in deep deep silence except for the screaming sirenes in my ears because of the tinnitus.
It's always a struggle to wake up because I sleep so deeply in the afternoon, it's like a regular person would be woken up after 3 or 4 hours during their REM sleep and are forced to stay awake. W. knows he should not speak to me for the first 20 min or so because I and non-communicado and will rip his head off. After same meds cocktail as before only now added to the bunch a lovely B12/Gluthatione injection administered my the even so lovely W. in my butt, I start to come around a bit. Time for dinner, it's around 9:00 PM now, and some socializing and more puppy pee trips to the yard(W. not me)
Together we drink a wonderful espresso after dinner and if I feel ok we watch some tv. Around 11:00 PM W. goes off to his room for a good night sleep and takes the pups with him. I go to my room and either fall into bed or read some email and need to catch up on new research. I can not let a day go by without looking at research and blogs of fellow patient friends.

Use the Chi machine for half an hour, if I'm in much pain I might use the far infra red lamp as well. Do some acupressure, listen to visualizations stuff on my iPod or books on tape. Too exhausted and too much sensory overloaded to be able to blog. Not looking forward to the night. Take cocktail meds that should knock me out but it don't. At least it creates a sense of peace in my mind and body and I'm okay with that. Go over the things I am grateful for today, having medication is always one of them. Happy that I made it through another day.

And that was an account of a good day for me, hope you had a good one too!

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The words of my favorite poem, Invictus, gives me so much courage, time and time again.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud,
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.



Well, as you probably have guessed by the lack of postings about my ABX protocol it did not work out. In short, it was a disaster.

First, I should not have started with the InterfasePlus to attack the biofilms but start slowly with the Interfase without the Plus and than add a low abx after the dust had settled I should have started working on the biofilms.

Alas that is not how it went. dr. V. told me to start with the Plus and that is what I did, other patients had wonderful results with it, I nearly ended up in ER. Only my fear and terror of ER's kept me out of it this time. I blatantly refused to go. I have seen too many ME friends ending up in ER and being treated with shocking conventional meds and nearly die. Shocking for the system, we can't take the same treatment as 'normal' people get! We're too damned sensitive!

After I slowly tried to build up the InterfasePlus with 1/4 of a dose I got serious Tachycardia, dizziness and low BP which made me faint again of course, blazing migraines and that heart that wouldn't beat a normal beat. I was sweating like I was in menopause and had hot flashes and I knew it was seriously wrong. A great deal of the viral and bacterial infection is in my heart and so are the biofilms. No wonder I started to feel rotten, they didn't like being messed with. Plus my lack of detox capabilities made it even worse. I drank loads of electrolyte enhanced fluids, took charcoal hoping to bind whatever was causing my heart to behave like a 9.0 earthquake, mud packs, the whole shebang.

It took days before my heart rate was back to normal and I can't tell you how exhausting that is. You can't sleep, don't know how to lie down or sit up, toss and turn, bend over to help that little organ that regulates the heart rhythm get back into it's normal shape. I took medication to get the rhythm back to normal and in the end it worked out but all the while I felt like I was dying.
And that was that. I had a relapse that took me almost all summer to get back to were I was and I'm still not there and probably never will.

It has been a difficult summer. A couple of my dear online ME friends died and I had to come to terms with that. All as ill as I am and you can’t help and wonder if that is going to be next for you as well. You somehow have to make peace with it, if not, life, what is left of it is going to be a struggle. I'm still working on it though.
I hoped to be well enough to travel by September, what was I thinking? Of course I wasn't. My daughter gave birth without me being present to her first one, a beautiful baby boy. I know she needed me there, it was a difficult birth and I felt utterly useless and failing as a mom. Again. A 19 hour travel just wasn't in the cards for me.

This rotten disease knows no boundaries in taking what is mine, the more it takes the more it wants. It's a hungry beast with a bottomless stomach. Melancholy and grief seemed to be the theme of the summer, there was just no end to it. Just when you thought you conquered one problem physical or emotional another one popped up.

After new testing, 21 vials again, yes the big ones, we decided to start with the antivirals this time. Test results were not good, viral load is way up from all kinds of viral infections so it's needed to start doing something. If we do nothing it will be over pretty soon so we might as well give it a shot.

At the moment I'm looking at my container with Valtrex, patiently waiting for me to start taking them. I was ready for it had I not decided that a massage would be a good idea I probably would have started by now. But that trigger point massage, from a wonderful in home massage therapist I might add, threw me in a total relapse, again!
Dr.V. had already warned me to be careful not to move lymph fluids but I gathered him being his usually overprotective self towards me, how much damage could a massage do. Well let me tell you,.... a LOT! Within 2 hours I was reduced to a blubbering shaking, shivering mass that didn't know where to turn to get rid of so much pain that was traveling through my body as a roller coaster in a Disney park.

It's 4 weeks now and it's slowly getting less, except the spinal cord inflammation. Dr. V suggested a DMSO IV, apparently it will help for inflammation. I'm scared for cardiac problems but at this point I'm willing to try anything. A side effect of DMSO is it's smell that generates from the patient, comparable to rotten eggs or garlic. The stories I have read tell of couples that need to sleep apart because of the smell and can't stand to be in one room together.
We already have our own bedrooms so we solved that problem. My need to be alone, in total darkness and quietness and strange sleeping hours was keeping W. awake and he has to work the next day so I got my own room where all my things are surrounding me and me hospital bed that goes up and down at the head and feet. I can lay there all day and bother no-one.

Now we have to find a day that I can be up longer than 2 hours so I can get the IV. I hope I can manage somehow to get to the clinic, and sit in the chair which will be a challenge. Last time we tried an IV I left crying because of the pain it causes me to sit in a recliner for longer than 20 min. Maybe if the had a bed I could lay on my side, that would help. Or maybe I can bring my own bed in the form of an Aero bed ;-) Set it up in the hallway and lie down. i might suggest that and ask them to take pics. Great fun ;-) We are so easily amused ;-)

I had a few requests to post some test results and a medication/supplement list of what I already take, will do so tomorrow.

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Cpn, Chlamydia Pneumoniae, is an infectious bacteria and the most active bacterial infection in my body and a dangerous nasty bug.

It has 3 life stages. Cpn is not in your blood but it heads for your cells(brains, organs like l=kidneys, liver, lungs, heart, sinus) right away. Once in a cell it takes on the ID of that cell so your immune system does not recognize it. Clever little buggers! Than it sets up little factories where it can reproduce itself and it seals the cluster it has now made and goes into a resting stage.

Around that cluster a film is forming, a bio film and over time other bacteria and viruses harden the bio film wand on the outside with the Cpn bacteria in it so no antibiotics can get to it.

Now what I first need to do is take a medication that will open up the bio film and once it's open the abx(antibiotics) can get in. However these are though nasty critters and they will put up a fight and because of the different life stages we need different ab's to deal with that. If one isn't working anymore the other one can take over and clean up the mess.

The toxins they release will be horrible and no walk in the park, it will make me ill and cause painful inflammation everywhere. Because I have a BIG problem detoxing it is going to be a closely monitored event. I miss certain gene that takes care of providing glutathione used for detox.
The problems is they(the bacteria) have taken up house in the mitochondria which takes among other things care of the detoxing. I keep suppling it with glutathione injections but not sure if it is enough and maybe I'm just feeding the beasts.

The protocol is been used by a lot of people who have Cpn, it's a common co-infection in MS and ME/CFIDS. it's a controversial protocol because it uses up to 5 different abx at the same time for a long time. A protocol maybe take from 2 - 5 years so it's not just a course of abx of 10 days and you’re done with it. No this is a long term plan, it's _that_ hard to kill off the buggers.

There are different variations of the protocol. It started with dr, Stratton who did a lot of research and work on this but had to close his facility because funds dried up. Now where did I hear that before? dr.Freitas anyone? Luckily a lot of information he wrote and produced has been preserved and it all can be found on the Cpn web site.
The 3 protocols or CAP(Combined Antibiotic Protocol)as they are called are recommended by dr. Stratton and dr. Wheldon from the UK who is a microbiologist. Many regular physicians do not feel comfortable prescribing so many abx for so long because the have no experience with it. I'm so lucky and grateful to have W. as my physician who not only is very knowledgeable but also not afraid to think outside the box and accept my ideas and research.

I ordered the Interfase Plus a medication to remove and open up the biofilm and will start as soon as it arrives which according to my peeps at Amazon will be tomorrow.
That will take about 3 weeks according to W. and he said my body will let me know when it's ready to move on to the next stage. How exactly I don't know but I'm sure I'm in for a ride ;-) That next stage will be a abx called Biaxin or Clarithromycin.

This time I truly intend to document it all, because I know so many of you still have to go through this and so little info is to be found. I hope it will help someone.

I'm so grateful for my friends online who support and cheer me on no matter what I do and who are all so understanding of what I feel and let me whine and be silly when I need to. Thanks you guys, where would I be without you? Honestly, without the Internet I would go insane, it's my window to the world.

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It has been a while.

Not because I had nothing to say, I left promising a extensive blog about my Chinese Herbal medicine. No I had plenty to say, but as we know the mind can be willing but our bodies do not always comply. I had a set back, not one but a few. Every time I crawled back to the place I was before there was something else that came out of nowhere and hit me on the head and told me where my place was. In my bed, crying in pain, the bathroom puking my guts out, lying on the floor wondering how to get back to the bed.

No, it has not been a great time and it should have been a joyous time. Our daughter and husband have let us know they are expecting their first wee one. Of course we are over the moon for them, at the same time I'm grieving, grieving the fact that I can't be there for her in this so important time of her life. When every girl wants and need her mom to share this intimate moment with. The uncertainties, the troubles, the questions. Not being able to get on a plane and be with her causes me so much mental pain I can hardly explain it. I can handle physical pain but this feeling of failing as a mother is more than I can handle and I curse my body and this horrible illness. I want to be there when the first happy sound comes out of the baby's mouth, I want to smell it's wonderful baby smell, hold it's tiny body in my arms. I want to see my daughter becoming a mom. This is the second time I had to disappoint her, last year I was not able to make it to her wedding either. The flight to Europe takes at least 11 hours plus check-in and security it will easily add up to 18 hours, more than I can handle. A 15 minute drive to the clinic and I need to recover for a week let alone a flight with jetlag to Europe.

This kind of stress caused me to crash and I needed to find a way to deal with it and still be able to be there in some way for her even though it's just virtual with video chat.
It's not the same but it's what we got.

On the health front I am starting the abx(antibiotics protocol)tomorrow. My dr. W. and I had a chat and decided I am unhappy with the way things are going now, I have no life at all. We were waiting and working on getting my immune system on track and restore my body's strength before we could start a viral or abx protocol to kill of the infections either viral or bacterial. But it's not happening. No matter what we do I stay at the same level I was 2 years ago. So we finally decided to go ahead anyway because this is not how I want to live my life. Bedridden, home bound, not seeing or talking to anyone for days or weeks. The loneliness and isolation is overwhelming sometimes and I feel like a freak living like a hermit. No friends who come to visit, not family to support or help out. I needed to do something.

I have so many bacterial infections and the results of blood work stays high. No sign of any virus backing down and leaving me or going dormant. They are all very active.
The bacteria I tested positive for are Cpn(Chlamydia Pneumoniae), Lyme, MAC(Mycobacterium Avium Complex), Giardia and H.Pylori, Mycoplasma.
It's a long list and than there are the viral infections that we will have to deal with sometime.

The abx protocol is not going to be a walk in the park. And I'm scared. But I need to be pro-active and do something otherwise I can just as easily just quit living.
But stil ... I'm scared.

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I started adding Chinese herbal medicine to my treatment protocol this week and thought it might be a good idea to write a bit more about my experience so far. Maybe it will help someone else who's thinking of starting it also.

A couple of weeks ago a research abstract was posted on the CFSresearch list about a herbal treatment with Radix Pseudostellariae aka PRP aka Tai Zi Shen aka Prince's Ginseng.

Below the abstract that was posted.
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[start abstract]
Evid Based Complement Alternat Med.. [Epub ahead of print]
Polysaccharide of Radix Pseudostellariae Improves Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Induced by Poly I:C in Mice.

Sheng R, Xu X, Tang Q, Bian D, Li Y, Qian C, He X, Gao X, Pan R, Wang C, Luo Y, Xia Y, Dai Y.

Department of Pharmacology of Chinese Materia Medica, China
Pharmaceutical University, 24 Tong Jia Xiang Road, Nanjing 210009,
China, yuedaicpu@hotmail.com.

Radix Pseudostellariae is used as a tonic drug in traditional Chinese medicine with immunomodulating and anti-fatigue activities, and the polysaccharide is considered as the main active component.

The purpose of this study is to examine the effect of the polysaccharide isolated from Radix Pseudostellariae (PRP) on mouse chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS) induced by intraperitoneal injection of polyriboinosinic:polyribocytidylic acid (poly I:C), a double-stranded synthetic RNA.

It has shown that the fatigue symptom of mice lasted at least 1 week as evaluated by forced swimming time. PRP (100, 200, 400 mg kg(-1)), orally administered 3 days before poly I:C injection, showed dose-dependent anti-fatigue effects.

In addition, poly I:C led to evident alternations in neuroendocrine and immune systems of mice, such as reduced spontaneous activity and learning ability, declined serum level of corticosterone, increased weight indexes and T lymphocyte numbers in thymuses and spleens, and increased CD4(+)/CD8(+) ratio but decreased proliferation ability of T lymphocytes in spleens.

PRP alleviated the abnormalities caused by poly I:C, and restored the function of hosts to normal conditions. The findings suggest that PRP is beneficial to CFS, and the underlying
[end abstract]
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These are the properties of Tai Zi Shen:
Chinese Name: Tai Zi Shen
English Name: Pseudostellaria
Taste Properties: Bitter (Ku), Neutral (Ping), Sweet (Gan)


According to the info from Plum Flower brand of Tai Zi Shen:
[quote]Pseudostellaria is an important herb that helps people recover from chronic illness, especially illness that damages the body fluids.

Scientific research shows that Pseudostellaria to aid in protecting the mucin layer that lines the respiratory tract and functions as an immune defense system.

Additionally, Pseudostellaria is very effective in combating neurasthenia – fatigue, lack of appetite and inability to concentrate. Because of its ability to strengthen the immune system and nourish body fluids, it is a helpful herb for the debilitating aspects of allergies.

Strengthens Spleen and benefits the Qi – fatigue and lack of appetite. Generates fluids – thirst and injury to fluids after a Heat disease [unremitting fevers]. Increases generation of saliva. Tonifies Lung deficiency - cough.[end quote]
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All sounded very interesting and I thought it was worth a try. I never came across a Chinese herb that sounded more fitted for ME/CFIDS than this one. At least for _my_ ME. I consulted my friend, excellent acupuncturist and herbalist C. to ask his opinion and to see if he could locate the Tai Zi Shen for me if he thought it would fit my constitution. The Tai Zi Shen was quickly found and ordered, which was interesting to me as so many other people on the CFSresearch list had trouble locating the herb. I guess if you go to the right source it _is_ available. ;-)

Funny thing about the Tai Zi Shen or Prince's Ginseng is that it is called that way but is in fact not a Ginseng at all according to Naturopathydigest.com.
And I again quote:
[quote] What is pseudostellaria?
Pseudostellaria is the name given to a type of plant that is often mistaken for ginseng, and is sometimes called "prince's ginseng." It grows throughout most of central China, including the Hebei, Liaoning, Jiangsu, Jiangxi and Hubei provinces.

Pseudostellaria roots are between two and four inches long, yellowish-white in appearance, and somewhat horn-shaped. The roots are used in herbal remedies, and contain a wealth of chemicals and essential elements, including copper, zinc, selenium, and more than a dozen amino acids.[end quote]



Here is the way I use it:
Put about 30 grams in a stainless steel or glass cooking device with 1 liter water.
Let it soak for 1 hour.
Than simmer for 1 hour.
Pour through strainer in a mason jar or other jar and when cooled keep in fridge.

This is what it looks like:



C. said it would taste like mint tea. Yeah right ;-) Maybe when you have a vivid imagination it does ;-) To be honest I had to get used to the taste, it has a slight bitter after taste that gave me goose bumps ;-) But I noticed that if you warm it up a little bit it is way less and I actually enjoy it now. When I drink a cup I try to imagine how healing and helpful this herbal liquid is and how it will improve my well being.

I have noticed a slight improvement in mental clarity, I'm still very fatigued and exhausted but can now actually rest and sleep longer. That's a major issue for me. Edema in my legs is less and I have to pee more. ;-)
It's still too early to see real benefits, it's only 4 days since I started the herbs so we need some more time to see real changes. Again the most important thing is that I have no negative effects and that was always the case with any other thing I tried.

Will keep posting on how I'm doing with the Prince's Ginseng that isn’t a Ginseng. ;-)

Tomorrow a bit more about the topicals and my second round of injections!

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Artwork is from the lovely, funny, multi talented and always an inspiration, Andy Dooley

Change is coming! It's my theme, my mantra for this year, this decade. I can feel there is a change in the air, whether it's good or bad I don't know, but it will be a change for sure. It's about time!

I have not been able to write much the last months. Too ill, too much stress, too much sadness. Too many treatments that started and did not work, too many herx episodes and too little detox.

This year started on a right note, we finally started the treatment we have been discussing since last year July. It looks like a modified Neural Therapy, except we're injecting homeopathic solutions in corresponding acupuncture points. Other ME patients I know that used this (experimental)treatment had very good results with it.

We started with 5 acupuncture points located on my legs and 1 in my elbow, the first session was last Friday. The good news is that I had no negative reaction whatsoever. Besides being sore from being poked at. ;-) I was extremely exhausted and slept for the first time in a long time for 6 hours straight. Woke up at 5:00 AM with swollen hands and a wedding band cutting off blood supply in my finger. It took a lot of oil and soap to get that off. ;-) I had a nasty headache as well which was because toxins were trying to leave my body I think so I drank a lot of water, had a horrible spinal pain, took a Morphine tablet and went back to sleep till 10:00 AM! It's amazing to be awake at 10:00 AM and feel like eating breakfast! Swollen hands were gone.

Normally with my delayed sleep cycle I do not get to sleep until 4:00 or 5:00 AM, wake up at 10:00 AM also but exhausted and sad because I did not manage to get a good night sleep again. I still get up or try to get up at 10:00 AM to keep a 'normal social acceptable' schedule, but the result is not in the best interest of my healing. I should sleep at least till noon. Why I don't? It's because I'm afraid to totally switch night and day and the nagging voice of my mother in my head that only scum lay in bed all day. Funny how that still works.

My cortisol is out of wack. I have 2 peaks during a day. One peaks at 11:00 AM and the other at 11:00 PM. No wonder I can not sleep because my body feels awake because of the cortisol. Normal people have a curving cortisol graph, not me. I go from nothing to a peak like Mt.Hood and than drop pretty quick again.

The next day after treatment I felt pretty well, mental clarity and my mood improved. Physical I did not notice any changes yet but I hope that will soon change after we start injections 3 times a week. It's hopeful that I didn’t have a negative reaction after so many treatments made me decline even more.

I also started TCM, and started with the herb Prince's Ginseng or also known as Tai Zi Shen see also this web site

My friend, the acupuncturist loaned me very generous his TDP lamp if you're not familiar with the TDP lamp Wikipedia has a nice entry to it.

I use a wonderful Chinese oil with the lamp called Trauma Oil, which helps with the pain in my muscles and a liquid Zheng Gu Shui(not with the lamp). The last one is magic to my weary bones that hurt so much. Right after applying it I feel the pain becoming less. Something that no lidocaine patch or pain medication has been able to do.

I'm herxing a little but that is good, my body lets me know is has received the message loud and clear, change is on it's way!

Stay tuned for the next update!

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